Life Dynamics

PSVT. For those of you like me and don't have a medical degree specializing in cardiovascular electro-physiology, that is Proximal Supra Ventricular Tachycardia. A disorder arising in the atrium that can result in severely elevated heart rates, sometimes upwards of 200 beats per minute, for no real reason at all.

As of November 3, 2010, I have been diagnosed with this disorder. For about two weeks, life came to a screeching halt. Trips to the Cardiologist, fighting with heart monitors, calming relatives on a subject I was at complete unrest about, and even a wonderful trip to the ER, I simply stood auditing my life for the first half of this month.

I am currently scheduled for surgery on January 7th. I was scheduled  to return to school on the 13th. For health insurance issues and time complications, I will no longer be returning to school this Spring and will have to postpone my return until the Fall. While I am guaranteed readmission, this has by far been the most difficult pill to swallow.

While I would love to say this has been the only major hurdle like this that I have faced in my life, I could not be further from the truth. Life always seems to present me with a laundry list of what most consider to be the single most difficult point in their lives. Fortunately for me, the horrors I face nearly annually, are accompanied by the wonderful gifts and opportunities that I am presented with nearly daily.

Due to the complications with my health insurance, I will not be able to play full time in January. But I will be able to in May, and will be able to spend the extra three months helping under resourced youth here in Dallas. I have poured a significant amount of my life into improving the program I volunteer for, and the extra three months will allow me to finish up nearly all that I have planned.

While there is a rather large queue of situations like this, the simple fact is that having my entire plan for 2011 ripped away from me, by a genetic heart defect, has left me torn and somewhat bitter. I am continuously working on making this as positive of an event as I can, and knowing myself, I know that I will be to terms with it all soon enough.

Until then, I am still grinding, still teaching, still learning, still inventing, still innovating, and still happily on this roller coaster I call life.